Fight Club Friday: Destroying something beautiful


Painting by Danae8 on the d.a.

You take lymphoma and tuberculosis —

No, you take tuberculosis. My smoking does not go over at all.

Destroying something beautiful: sometimes Marla feels like doing it, too. I can say I mean to quit smoking cigarettes, I can say I know I should, I can say I don’t know how, and that everyone should have a vice and I’m banking on them discovering a cure for cancer by the time I get it, and a million other excuses or clever deflections, but it’s all lies, and worst of all to myself. I just don’t want to. I’m not ready.

So I guess that’s what I’ll tell my lungs when they decide to try and fail me, too. Sorry, guys — I wasn’t ready to quit.

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One Response to “Fight Club Friday: Destroying something beautiful”

  1. Eric Bourland Says:

    But, be kind to yourself.

    I know: unasked-for, importunate, meddling. Sorry.

    But, your writing! A fine discovery. I’d like to read more, for more years unabridged by pulmonary complications in the writer. =) I’m selfish that way.

    Wishing you the best.

    Eric

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