Painting by Danae8 on the d.a.
You take lymphoma and tuberculosis —
No, you take tuberculosis. My smoking does not go over at all.
Destroying something beautiful: sometimes Marla feels like doing it, too. I can say I mean to quit smoking cigarettes, I can say I know I should, I can say I don’t know how, and that everyone should have a vice and I’m banking on them discovering a cure for cancer by the time I get it, and a million other excuses or clever deflections, but it’s all lies, and worst of all to myself. I just don’t want to. I’m not ready.
So I guess that’s what I’ll tell my lungs when they decide to try and fail me, too. Sorry, guys — I wasn’t ready to quit.
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The Thought Experiment 
July 30, 2014 at 2:20 pm |
But, be kind to yourself.
I know: unasked-for, importunate, meddling. Sorry.
But, your writing! A fine discovery. I’d like to read more, for more years unabridged by pulmonary complications in the writer. =) I’m selfish that way.
Wishing you the best.
Eric